Wednesday, July 1, 2015

So, this.

In the wise words of another Shannon, “sometimes the best and worst times of your life can coincide.” If I had to guess, I’d say the Shannon who wrote that was probably also going through a divorce.

Yes, people- in the short one year since I’ve stopped blogging, life has taken a seriously unexpected turn. In what can only be explained as the “shock heard ‘round the world” (or at least in the world of my family and friends), my soon-to-be-ex-husband and I separated last October. After 9 years of dating, not even 3 years of marriage, and one eighteen-month old daughter-- we officially called it quits. Certainly not what I had it mind but you know, “God laughs in the face of your plans,” or whatever. It’s true. He does. And honestly, there are worse things that could happen. Granted, there are better things too—but you know: you win some, you lose some (… are you tired of my clichés yet?).

Coincidentally, without my knowledge, my marriage was starting to fall apart right around the time I wrote my last blog post (shamelessly thanking my amazing husband no less—ouch!). I wouldn’t find out about my exes “unhappiness” for months to come—but between that, and my constant fear of upsetting anyone (yes, even the person who “broke my heart”—or whatever other sappy, semi-pathetic way you want to describe it), I decided it was time to take a hiatus from my writing. Luckily for you though, my sister Allie (who never took a break from blogging—so go check it out!) was relentless in asking me to revive “Mommy Brain” because, as she says, it would make me more “relatable.” Gotta love the girl’s reasoning.

Ultimately, the reason I decided to bring it back (“it” being my blog… not “sexy” #sexyback #badjokes) was because I’m tired of hiding from what happened. I went through (and am still going through!) a really crappy experience. It sucked. There is literally no other way to adequately express the pain you feel when someone you promised to spend your life with, breaks not only that commitment but also, your trust. The good part is, it sucks a little bit less every day. And before you know it, you wake up one morning and you don’t miss the person who betrayed you anymore. You feel happiness again. And then sadness again. And then more happiness. And so on and so on. But eventually, the happiness wins out. I promise you it does.

And just like I started “Mommy Brain” to relate to other mom’s going through the hustle and bustle of raising our little tykes—I figure I may as well be open about my journey through the really fun and exciting time that is divorce (please, sense my sarcasm). Besides, I seriously only believe in four types of therapy: retail (duh.), music, running, and writing. So who am I to pass up some free therapy? Lord knows I need it. ;)





So please, rejoice in the restoration of what can only be described as the world’s best blog. And check back soon for more! I promise that I will try really, really hard not to leave you again. …But I make no guarantees on how often I’ll post. I mean, I am a “busy” single mom now. ;)

1 comment:

  1. Great post! You are one of the strongest, most courageous moms I know and you've got this. Lacey is one lucky little girl to have you!!!
    "When life gives you lemons, put nine in a bowl." -- quote from "another Shannon" Just remember that God doesn't give you anything that you cannot handle. You deserve to have someone who will be loyal and support you in the good times as well as the bad. That person is out there...you just haven't found him yet.

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